(so first of all, there's been a bunch of art added to the gallery since my last journal entry, and if you want to see previews of chapters when they're partway done, look no further than the SRU Tumblr and Facebook, where I also post artworks as they get finished and even sometimes WIP)[link][link]
- "I don't want you listening to this distracting nonsense!" -
So in light of yesterday's fangasming about a certain Korra spoiler, and how it just served as another example of things that really bother me in fandoms (in general) it got me wondering why.Why I bother to even respond to such things, why they upset me at all in the first place. I think I've figured it out.
Part of it is that I am a writer who works hard and takes my writing somewhat seriously, so from that perspective, seeing people choose to read or not read based on nothing to do with my writing and only to do with the ships - that's discouraging. Watching someone who -used- to be a reader and support the story leaving negative comments on SRU art because it's not Taang shipping? That's childish and irritating.
But it's more than that.
The race stuff? About Korra's skin color? I hate it. Korra's skin color is not important. She's a Water Tribe girl, that's what is. And yes, she is not caucasian, but NO, I have not, ever, seen anyone portray her as such, so people need to chill out and stop doing things like stealing other's artwork and modified it to make themselves feel self-righteous. The more we focus on skin color, the more we're making it a big deal out of something that shouldn't be. It's like Toph's blindness - the show AND Toph herself made fun of her blindness and in doing so humanized it, made it just an aspect of her character rather than her defining trait. Same with Zuko's scar. Normally those would be politically incorrect things to discuss.
There is kind of a reference to Korra's ethnic appearance (indirectly) in episode 2 of Korra, and yet its sole purpose is to point out that people shouldn't jump to conclusions.
The race stuff bothers me because I'm Caucasian and grew up in an environment where I was the minority, where I got picked on, ridiculed, socially locked up, physically beaten,just because of the color of the my skin.
And the shipping stuff. Do I negatively overreact to fangirls overreacting to it? Yea, sometimes I probably do. I figured out the real reason for that last night, too.
It's because of my sexual history. How I was molested and beaten as a child, and how that has caused a psychological impact that had a detrimental effect on my marriage and made me feel unwanted by my spouse, who then cheated on me instead of working on our sexuality. I'm still a virgin - after a marriage and a divorce. Sexuality is a very meaningful subject for me.
So watching teenage girls twist characters whose story I value and objectifying them into nothing more than sex idols? That hurts a lot for me, personally. Because I've been used in the past. It's disrespectful, from my perspective. It's degrading.
And that's not to say "oh woe is the fandom, how dare you have your fun" or anything like that. No, no. What I'm doing here is explaining why it bothers me, personally,as much as it does.
For a long time I feared joining the Avatar fandom because that kind of creepy obsessive behavior weirds me out and now, I realize, offends me on a personal level (which is not anyone's fault, BTW, I'm not trying to blame anyone here).
At the end of the day, my entire frustration boils down to one single thing: I am really into Avatar, I have been consistently fascinated and interested in it more intensely for a longer period of time than any other franchise. I want to be interacting with other people like that, but
then when I go trying to find people like that, 98% of them just care about Korra's boobs, or how Zuko 'should have' been with Katara, or how Mako is such an amazing piece of manliness (before we even knew anything about him) and the only focus is sex. Sex. Sex. Sex. Which, BTW, makes up a very small percentage of all Avatar story we've seen so far.
So there's that. I don't expect anyone (especially on Tumblr) really cares but I guess I just had the need to explain myself. It seems I really do need to try being more careful about what I'm exposing myself to on the internet
I guess I should learn to be calm and be the leaf. ^_^;